I seem to crave for the affection and comfort I’ve been missing, but the moment I find it within my reach I run. I’m deprived of love from a man but my heart is empty and has nothing to give. I am emotionally and mentally screwed up because of him. I fear being with another man, I get sick from the closeness and thought of attachment. I feel bad because it’s not the perfect guys fault but the flawed guy who broke me. On the outside I shine, my glow is blinding and my heart is huge. But I’m truly saddened with heart ache and a sole senseless lack of emotion.
Leaving you this time was easier then I had expected. I find that every night I thank god for not being with you. I can say I’m better then you, that I feel bad for the next girl. When you lay a hand on her, scream in her face, make her feel ugly daily and turn her down for sex consistently. When she finds your pathetic and your drugs will always be first. I see you going nowhere and all you’ll ever do is hold not only yourself but others back. You can never throw another object or words at me. You can never have the love I gave you. I don’t love you. I haven’t loved you for awhile. You hurt me in ways you shouldn’t have. I don’t miss you, I feel bad for you.
When you attempt to walk away from the one thing you love, you will find out whether it’s real or false. Every time I’ve tried to leave or you have we find ourselves in a battle of tears, struggling to find the peace and rid the hurt were about to endure. I find that when we part ways we find our way back to each other. Uncommon, what we have is rare. What I feel for you drives me crazy. I find torment being a pleasure game, my heart shatters from the constant games I play in my head. I love you. You feed my veins, my heart pumps because of you. Your lips are sweet sugar, your touch puts me in a trance.
I love you. Those three words aren’t anything, it’s the feeling I have in me at all times when I think of you. The way you smile, how you laugh, talk, move, everything you do drives me into a spinning blur. I feel my blood pumping through my veins, my heads pounding, I feel the cracks begin to shatter my heart.
You were what I looked forward too. Your the one that I love, the one id do anything for. Your my Booboo :/ please don’t go..
Sex is only good with the person I love. Drugs are only good when your high on life. Dubstep is only good when you don’t have anxiety. Sex is only great when it’s intense and naked. Drugs are only good when they help medically. Dubstep is only good when the bass drops and a female is singing. Sex is only amazing when your making love with the person you love. Drugs are only amazing when he is your drug. Dubstep is only amazing when your on the drug that you call him and your making love.
